Ah September is here, the ninth month out of the year. I feel the shift all around in relationships, jobs, death, people moving. The number 9 represents transitions and endings so it doesn't surprise me when so much change begins to take it's course. With the reminder that it's not just an end but also a new beginning. August was an intense month for a lot of us but this month is about refocusing our energies. September is a power month associated with fire due to it being the month of the Roman god Vulcan. This is the time to set flame to things that no longer serve you in a positive way, face the lessons and challenges that you've been given in order to grow and learn from. Acknowledge your gifts, taking inventory of yourself in order to get ready for the new year, the next cycle.
On a personal note, this time of year makes me think of death intensely. Since I was a kid I always was fascinated with ghosts and near death experiences, I remember looking for books at my school library and just being so intrigued by it all.
For a long time I wanted to know what it was like to be dead, it sounded peaceful to me. Looking back I see now that I just wanted to escape the world I was in because I didn't feel like I was living or able to live the life I wanted... as a kid you kind of don't have much control over that. Art was always my escape. But even as I matured into adulthood I still felt the need to escape this life. It was inevitable meditation would spark my interest at the age of 19 and now it's become an important part of my life. It gave me that peaceful feeling that art gave me minus the art supplies, ideas and energy it takes to create. The ability to create art created new things, but the ability to meditate created peace. The balance of the two has brought satisfaction to my life and beauty to seep into the cracks on my dark thoughts.
The reason I am talking about this is because a lot of people tend to start thinking of suicide during this time of year. The holidays do not help much for some of us either. Allot of us feel lonely (even more so with the pandemic), I know people who miss their children, they don't have family to celebrate with, some have lost their families in tragic ways, or have been abandoned. I'd like to also mention if you are one who feels allot of this please reach out to someone for help, comfort or support, you are not alone!
Resources: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org 1-800-273-8255
Taking inventory can be sad and feel counterproductive, but it is essential to accept and embrace the dualities in life, they go hand in hand, they coexist. It is then that we can move forward after acknowledging what is, in order to focus and work toward "what can be." We can't change the past, but it is what we do today that determines the future.
I hope this inspires you to create a better tomorrow, by making today a beautiful one. What will you choose?
Peace & Love Always,